Emerson continues to deteriorate as the day progresses.  Her blood pressures are dropping & they’re no longer able to maintain her without a line.  They placed a femoral line at the bedside, along with a foley bladder catheter, and are now pushing fluids to try and bring her pressures back up.  Her coloring is worse (which I didn’t think was possible) & she continues to sleep.  Neurology has been consulted, but hasn’t shown yet.

I am sick to my stomach and have a splitting headache.  I really don’t feel good at all…  I sat in the ICU waiting room while they placed the line; until memories of 16 months ago came flooding back & I started to relive the code.  I then went and sat in an empty room next to hers - that way I could hear her cries and know she was still breathing.

There are no words, I know…  Your prayers, though, would be greatly appreciated at this time.

Thank You.